It's already 11.30pm. I don't know how long I'll blog. There's so much marking to be down but yet I felt that I needed to pen down my thoughts...

It has been a busy week. Everyday I woke up early in the morning to get to Bedok Green Primary School to mark the PSLE papers. Each day after work there's so much to do. I went to cut my hair on the 1st day, went to church for a special meeting with a missionary from China on the 2nd day and today I went for BS. I must confessed that I have yielded to my flesh and hit the bed every night after reading the bible. I've not marked anything and looking at the piles of work really frightens me. Anyway, tomorrow is the last day of PSLE marking. It's also my mother's birthday. I'm bringing her out for dinner. So there goes my marking time again. However, I believe there is a way out. Enough of my introduction, the reason why I still blog despite my lack of time is because I wanna share of what I've learnt and heard from God these 2 days.

Let's talk about yesterday's meeting with Pastor Dennis. He's an Caucasian but he speaks pretty fluent English, Cantonese and Chinese!!! He shares about what he has been doing all along in China. He showed us videos and pictures of what is happening in China. I'm amazed to see the wonderful works of God in the rural areas in China. God sent missionaries to China to spread the love and Word of God to these people. And because of these missionaries, more and more China people are added into the kingdom of God. Seeing the hunger of these people for the Word of God really touches my heart. Thousands of them gathered in a small courtyard listening to the Word of God being preached. Everyone is so attentive and earnest to copy down the scriptures as they do not have bibles. How blessed we are, to be living in Singapore whereby there is freedom of religions and we can get our bibles anywhere! As I listen to the sharing done by Pastor Dennis and watched the video, I could hear my heart crying out, "God, use me!" I have a heart for China. I want to be part of the team that God sends to do a work in China. I want to be trained and discipled to do His work. I know now is a preparation phase for me before I really enter into missions. So right now, I can only pray for China and contribute as much finances as I can for missions.

As I'm typing this now, I'm reminded of what someone dear to me told me when I tried to get her to come back to church. The reason she gave for not coming is, she is still at a micro level of wanting to know God whereas our church is moving into a macro level of being a blessing to others in missions. Like what Pastor Kong shared and what Ying reiterated in her blog, God doesn't just want us to be blessed. We shouldn't focus on the wrong covenant. We should be blessed SO THAT we can be a blessings to others! So many people missed their destiny and relationship with God just because they want to live in their own comfort. So many came to church just wanting to be blessed but not wanting to bless others. It's a sad thing to know that people stayed away from church just because they feel that missions are not for them. In fact, God has called everyone to be missionaries! Jesus said in Matt 28:19:

"Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit."

Well, I was disappointed in this dear fren of mine who rejected my many invitations. However, I will not give up in her. I believe my heart for her will cause her to be touched one day and she'll be back. She'll grow stronger in the Lord. The Word of God says, "Do not be weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart."

So, to Mic:
It is normal to be disappointed when people fail you. But don't let that disappointment get you down or get in your way of meeting God and fulfilling your destiny in Him. The Word of God says that we should praise Him IN EVERY situations. Our situations should never become a barrier between us and God. His ways are higher than our ways, His thoughts are higher than our thoughts too! I believe He has a better plan which we do not know yet. I also believe that God is building His people up spiritually to do His work. That includes you and I. As both of us have desires to touch lives and impact people, let's build ourselves up strong in the Word, spiritually mature, to be a light that shines wherever we go. Let's bear such a good testimony for Him that people will be attracted to us that we might direct them to God. Huiling reminded me this morning: The proof of our desire is in our pursuit. Let's do all that we can to pursue after our desire ok? With men, it is impossible. But with God, all things are possible. Yes!! The Word of God is true! You can do it together with God. You can do all things through Christ who strengthens YOU. Only through Jesus and not by your own strength. This verse applies not just to everyone, but that everyone includes YOU. Don't lose heart. Keep praying for your fren. I won't forget my dear frens too. Last but not least, Mic, I enjoyed the time we spent talking each time after our BS and before we pray. Thanks for sharing and for staying back till so late.

John 4:23:
"But the hour is coming, and now is, when the true worshipers will WORSHIP the Father in SPIRIT and TRUTH; for the Father is seeking such to WORSHIP Him."

Ps 29:2:
"Give unto the LORD the glory due to His name; WORSHIP the LORD in the beauty of holiness."

Wow! It's a long entry... It's 1am! I got to wake up in about 5 hours' time. So I shall stop here for the time being. I still have something else to share... perhaps I'll continue tomorrow. :D

PSLE marking...

Yesterday morning I went to play the guitar for Sis Ee Ling's cg. I was all prepared becos we just played the Praise song last week. However, I reached there only to know that I need to depose the song. Oh man!! It was tough playing those bar chords throughout. During the prac, I was so nervous. I kept playing the wrong chords. And know what? After the prac, I lost my pick!! That was the best pick. I got to make do with another one which does not sound as good. So I think I really got to apologised to Sis Ee Ling and her cg. Sorry sorry sorry. It was a good experience though. I can remember my SHIFU (Bro Merf) told me to know how to depose on the spot. I can also remember my beloved Huiling telling me to flow with the leader. Hopefully I didn't flow too badly with her. =D

Anyway, today is PSLE marking 1st day! I was out of my house early but reached the sch late. Waited rather long for the bus. Thank God I was about 10min late only. While I was running from the bus stop to the sch gate, there were 2 irritating guys standing at the sch hall laughing at me. When I finally reached the hall, I was hot and thirsty. I met my colleagues and saw one of the irritating guys. He looked towards my direction and smiled at me. I turned to ask my colleague if that was her fren, but she said no! So that guy must be laughing at me!!! Don't ask me how he look like. I was too embarrassed and angry to look at him carefully.

Really got to thank God for a good job. I heard my name being called. There were only 4 of us. I reported and was told we were to mark the open-ended questions. I got a shock thinking it's problem sums. Hahaha! But it was the easiest section!! I got what I prayed for. Thank God for that. We went in and started marking rather early. I was satisfied with my job and efficiency. We finished marking about 5 to 6 packs. Still below target but we were the fastest. Hahaha! Of cos! Cos we got the easiest section. But we haf a lot more work to do. Got to check, shade etc. There were boring times too. BTW, the highlight of the day was break time! Hahaha! We were given $3 coupons to buy food. I finished up $2.80 during the 1st break at 10plus. Wahaha! So I didn't eat lunch. Got my Muslim fren's $1 cos she's fasting. Thank God for that. Tmr I shall ration my coupons well. Hahaha!

Think that's all I wanna say for the time being. Hope I can haf more revelations this week to share. Heehee! Wait for me k! Meanwhile, thanks for visiting and reading!

Marking marking marking...

It's been a mad rush these few days trying to finish marking stacks and stacks of books and worksheets. How pitiful these kids are, having to do so many exercises altogether. Not forgetting how tired the teachers are trying to finish marking every single one of them to return them back to the kids for revision. Here's an interesting conversation between my kids and I in class:

Me: Today I'm going to give you 1 set of English and 1 set of Science worksheets. Hand in
tomorrow.
Kids: Huh!!! Ms Goh, we already have a lot of homework!
Me: Hmm.. I believe if you don't waste time talking, you can actually
finish some in class and have lesser to do at home.
Kids: Last night a lot of us finished at 12 midnight leh!
Me: (Feeling sorry but yet angry at their attitude) Well, I slept at 3am to mark your work.
Kids: Wa!!
Me: If you are complaining about doing 2 sets of worksheets, how much more should I
complain? Every 1 set of worksheet, I got to mark 42 scripts. If you do 5 sets, how many
would I have to mark?
Kids: (After much mental calculation) 210!
Me: Yes! 210 altogether! Who has more work?
Kids: You. (Speechless)
Me: So don't complain ok. Alright! You don't have to do the comprehension in the English
worksheet.
Kids: Yeah!!

So that's it! I guess it's happy ending! Hahaha! So they willingly have to do my work. The 2 stacks are now lying at my house... hmmm.. when will I be free to mark them? Got to finish them fast. Just gave out 6 sets today for them to complete during the PSLE marking days. Don't want the stacks to pile up. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!!! AMEN!

God is in time!

Hey folks! I have the last 10 min to blog before going for my TAF duty at 3.30pm. I just had dinner with my DEAREST EUNICE last night. It was a late celebration for my birthday. My dear was rather apologetic that it was so late.. but I don't feel it that way. Cos God actually has a perfect timing. :)

Anyway, we had noodles, baos and jiao zi at Crystal Jade. Very NICE! Hahaha! Thank God for her.

Also I wanna share this: I was actually feeling rather hungry this afternoon. Was about to go around asking my colleagues for biscuits when my HOD appeared. Thought he wanted to give me work to do... but he asked me if I've had my lunch. So I told him no and he said he had extra food and asked me if I would like to take the packet of MEE REBUS. God is great and in time!!! Hahaha! Surely He knows the desires of our heart and never fails to come at the right time.

Ops! The bell has rung! Byebye!!! =D

Perfect Love Casts out FEAR!

I'm using my bro's laptop now cos mine is low batt and I didn't bring my charger home. I was supposed to do my lesson plans but I decided to do that tomorrow when I go to school instead.. or perhaps later tonight (if I managed to keep myself awake).

Well, I wanna thank Deb for coming to my house to prevent me from falling asleep so that I could finish marking my HUGE stack of ENGLISH Activity Books. Praise the LORD! I'd finished and I'm here to blog. This might be my only entry for the week because I'll be real busy this week.

I had a meeting on Sat and realised there are so many things that I need to do and plan for the coming days. There's a CCA day coming up whereby we need to showcase our CCA to the P2 kids and their parents. Something new this yr, so lots of planning to be done. There's also a WALK & JOG coming up. This is also something new for this yr and I'm in charge of one part of the entire event. There are lots of new implementations as well. I think it's gonna be an even challenging yr next yr as I believe more things will be thrown under my charge. I pray for God's grace and wisdom to be upon me every single day of my life.

So, I'll be busy planning my work and finishing whatever that I need to finish. Finally gonna resume BS on Wed!! And also BV prac on Sun!! Yeah! Though I'll have lesser time for myself, but I think I need the BS and the BV prac to make my time more fruitful. Many times going for BS and BV prac actually strengthens me. Though sometimes I may drag my feet there because I'm physically tired, but after all it's all worth it because God moves through BS and even in prac!

By the way, I was worshiping in service today when I heard God spoke to me, "Perfect love casts out fear." Tears began to roll down my cheeks as I heard those words. I realised I've not perfected that love for God all along. If I had loved Him so much, I would not have feared when I faced my lack in life. To me, love for someone will cause a person to do whatever he/she can to make the person that he/she loves happy. Love will cause a person to go the extra mile. Love will cause a person to say, "No matter what happens, it is enough just to have You." This is a season that I need to put my total trust in Him and really love Him more than I love myself or anybody. There must be a conviction that it is good enough just to have Him alone. Nothing else really matters. I need to go the extra mile for Him and obey His call.

--1 John 4:18--

"There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love."

I thank God for sending His angels (u may be the angel I'm talking about)to bless me every single day of my life to keep showing me His faithfulness. God is never late. He is always on time. His Word always comes at the right time to encourage and lift us up. As I was looking through 1 John 4:18, the Holy Spirit reminded me that God is love. If I replace the word "love" with "God", it'll be:

"There is no fear in God, but perfect God casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in God."

Wow! What a revelation to me! Thank for this revelation. Thank God for His love.